Today’s writing prompt: The last letter you wrote by hand
The bus honked incessantly. One guy in a pair of really tiny red shorts was calling out names of passengers, at least that’s what I thought. R was sipped at a black bubbly drink from a suspicious looking bottle and made his way through some oily fried rice and an omelette full of green chillies.
We had just crossed the border on foot from Cambodia and into Thailand. We were now waiting a shack for a bus to take us to Bangkok. I had finished my share of rice, eggs, oil and green chillies and couldn’t bear to look at the guy with tiny red shorts anymore. I opened my diary and started writing a letter to S. I had really missed her while traveling through Cambodia.
My dearest,
It is really hot from where I am writing. I don’t know the name of the place but it is in the border of Cambodia and…
“That’s the last bus to Bangkok”. I looked up and saw R looking hassled and lost in the heat and sweat and the aftermath of the green chilly omelette. We quickly grabbed our bags and rushed towards the bus, only there was no bus in sight. There was a vehicle which looked somewhat like a minivan and the guy with the tiny red shorts was at the driver’s seat. The van already looked occupied and I was just beginning to scratch my head. Before my hand could make contact with my tangled hair, R shoved me in the last seat with my backpack and climbed into a small space in the front between a basket covered in green polythene and the guy in the tiny red shorts. A couple of very loud honks later we were on our way to Bangkok.
The heat inside the van was stifling. The guy sitting next to me smelled of cigarettes and dirty socks. He snored and his head kept rolling towards my shoulder. To distract myself, I pulled out my diary and attempted to continue my letter to S.
There was so much to tell her! I started writing about the temples in Siem Reap and quickly lost myself in the history of ruined temples, magnificent sculptures and the beauty of a full moon night in Angkor Wat. Just as I was describing how the guard at Angkor chased us away from our hiding spot in the evening, the van came to a screeching halt. The snoring head belonging to dirty socks collapsed on my shoulder and awoke with a grunt. Tiny Red Shorts jumped out of the van and waved excitedly. R looked at me from the front seat and indicated that this was our first and possibly our last stop before Bangkok. All passengers trooped out and made their way to wherever they wanted to go. Dirty socks refused to budge. After several aggressive gestures with my little finger he moved his legs and allowed me to climb out of the van. I ran to the toilet. When I came back, I saw R had bought some food and was smoking a cigarette. Tiny red shorts was already running excitedly towards the van.
Once in the van, I pulled out my diary again. The letter looked all squiggly and there was a big scratch on the page which described the mystical delight of Angkor on a full moon night. I was now squished between Dirty Socks and a guy carrying chicken food and had produced an illegible letter. I fished around for my ipod in my backpack but my fingers came out coated with sticky shampoo. Sighing and cursing I returned to my diary and continued to write my letter to while the van honked its way to Bangkok.
So I wrote to S about rest of the temples and about the balloon ride. I told her about the far off temples in Koh Ker where the landmines had been cleared only four years back. I told her about the Great Lake Tonle Sap and life in the floating village. I wrote about the food and the local markets. But most of all, I wrote to her about just how much I had missed her and how much I had wanted her to be a part of this trip.
I fell asleep sometime after making peace with Dirty Socks and the chicken food. When I woke up, I had several pages of squiggly words, dotted with pen marks all over and ink under my nails. The van had stopped in a vegetable market. For a fleeting moment I thought it was a bus stop in Sion, Bombay. But it wasn’t. We were in Bangkok. Tiny Red Shorts was already unloading the luggage. R was giving him a hand. They must have bonded during the ride. R flashed a huge smile at me and held up our bags. They were intact. I climbed out of the van after Chicken Food and left Dirty Socks to snore by himself.
Once in the hotel, I inspected the ten odd pages of the unfinished letter to S. I tore out the pages from my diary, put them in the hotel envelope and tucked the envelope in my diary. I was determined to post it although I was quite sure S wouldn’t be able to decipher a single word of the letter.
The envelope fell out of my diary when I was unpacking on our return to Delhi. I tucked it away in my diary once more and put it among my old books.
I discovered the letter again after a couple of years while I unpacked a carton of old books after moving to Singaopre. The envelope was crisp and white, the pages inside were yellow and smelled of ink and old paper. The pages stuck together because of moisture. I kept it away feeling a slight tug at my heart. S now knew about the temples, the full moon night and the wonders of the ruins. She even knew how badly I had missed her.
But that tug at my heart? It was really because S would now never know how a letter looked like when it was written in a bumpy ride seated between Chicken Food and Dirty Socks. I had missed my chance to show her how it really was.