Child Sexual Abuse Awareness Month: April 2011

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e. sent via some/all of the above methods

The list of topics is available here. Anonymous contributions are accepted and requests for anonymity will of course be honoured. I will probably be hosting at least one guest post and encourage you to do the same for non-blogging friends. 


 

On the week that was!

So I worked at neck breaking speed from Monday to Wednesday sending off emails, finalizing reports, letters and contracts. Boarded a flight to Chennai at 6-freaking 40 in the morning on Thursday and got home well past midnight. Ended up taking a day off on Friday and spent the whole day doing laundry and cleaning at home. Went out in the afternoon hunting for blingy saree to wear at an upcoming big fat Punjabi wedding, rushed home and then sat at a clinic for a while a friend was barking at nurses who refused to pay proper attention to her needs. Evening dawned, missed the blogger get together at Mocha, people started coming over, drinks, music and much madness followed. Slept in the wee hours of the morning, got up on time to rush for a training on Saturday. Spent the whole day on my two feet vigorously defending women’s rights, the need for the domestic violence act and fighting off sleep. Got back, changed and rushed for a surprise party that was happening for the darling bride to be at the said fat Punjabi wedding. Reached rather late, ate fish tikkas, made small talk, dropped off friend at the airport, reached home, c.r.a.s.h.e.d.

Still woke up at 6! *Sigh* Did some chores. Slept off again. Woke up. Had lunch. Slept. Woke up. Ran errands. Slept. In between, found a delightful Thai restaurant near my place.

Monday came along. Just like it always does. And just when I had put my legs up on my coffee table and was nursing a hot cup of tulsi tea, A called and merrily invited himself over for biriyani and beer! On a Monday! Yes. *Sigh*

 

Life, promise me you will always remain thus. What would I ever do without music and laughter in my home and sudden biriyanis on Monday nights :)

 

Snippets from a DEL-MAD flight

So I was on a flight to Madras yesterday at an obscene hour in the morning. I hadn’t even woken up properly. I was pretty confident that no one else had either. I was mostly right except that there were three children on the flight. Traveling together with their parents. And they were off for a vacation. Would other sleepy headed passengers concern them? Would the obscene hour of the morning bother them at all? Absolutely not. And while most passengers were irritated at the ruckus they were creating I could not help but laugh out loud to myself at some of the conversation they were having with their parents.

 

Here are some snippets that I remember.

 

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-“Mamma! Give me my cheeps. Where are my cheeps?”

- “It’s too early in the morning. And its chips. Not cheeps.”

- “You are no fun. Try saying cheeps! It is so much fun! Cheeps! Cheeps.”

 

**

“Papa! Are we over the sky or under the sky?”

“Ummm….we are…”

“”Ooh! Papa! Look such a big cloud! Can I ask pilot uncle to take us in the cloud?”

“Umm..”

 

**

“Papa! The sky is not blue. See, see. Red, yellow, grey also. No? Teacher is wrong no?”

 

**

“Mamma! Look! I can see India!!” (On seeing the coast line of Chennai). “India! India! India!”(Three voices in unison)

 

**

“Mamma. Sheep! There are sheeps in the sky!”

“That is not sky budhhu that is water.” (said a sibling)

“No budhhu. We are over the sky. How can that be water?”

( Budhhu means “silly” in Hindi)

**

“Papa. That is an ocean no?”

“Umm..”

“Oooh! Papa! Look! There are white white things on water! Looooook!”

“Umm. Yes. Clouds.”

“Why are clouds in the water? I thought clouds are in the sky”

 

**

Right before the plane touched the ground

“It has landed no?”

“Not yet.’

2 second gap

“Has it landed now?”

“No.”

2 second gap

“It hasn’t landed now also?”

“No. It will any moment now”

2 second gap

“Ohhh! Papaji! The plane is running away!”

“Yes. It has landed.”

 

**

“Mama. I’ll take off this belt.”

“No.”

“But I am not scared. I am brave and strong.”

 

**

Papa says: “I think there is a mistake. The plane has come back to Delhi.”

“No.”

“No.”

“No papa. Dilli hota toh kitne sardarji dikh jaatey abhi tak” (If it were Delhi, then we would have seen many sardarjis by now!)

“Mama. Papa ko Dilli bhej do. Mujhe to ji idli dosa khana hai aur holiday karna hai” (Mama, please send dad to Delhi. I want to eat idli-dosa and have a god holiday)

(“Sardar” is a Hindi term used commonly for turbaned Sikhs)

**

(Once on the bus to the terminal)

“Papa yeh sabko kahan leke ja rahe hain? Sab kitne pareshan lag rahe hain” (Dad, where are they taking all of us? Everyone is looking so troubled)

**

Needless to say. I did not get any sleep on the flight.

 

 

I did not want to get out of bed today!

This morning a sleepy soul got out of bed having nice thoughts of staying at home, watching TV, reading and sleeping. The bath happened, breakfast happened, watering plants happened, metro ride – auto ride happened, maintaining calm exterior in office happened and staring at complicated documents happened.

And now. After some seven hours of squinting in front of a computer the said sleepy (still!) soul stumbles across THIS!

Calvin and Hobbes

Such irony. Life is.

On one moment.

Written in September 2010

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You sit beside me. Tired. Upset and a little sad on having to leave your best friend of twelve years and walk away. You waved one last time before stepping into the coach. You sat beside me.

You sat beside me and cried. You had to leave your best friend of twelve years and get on a train.

We talked for a while. About what we always talk about. Reassurances. About life five years from now. About having children. About working, about living. We try to watch a movie on my laptop. But your tired eyes give up after a few minutes. You shut your eyes and after a few restless minutes you drift off to sleep. You sit beside me and sleep.

You sit beside me and I watch you sleep. The way you snore softly, your arms crossed over your broad chest, your legs crossed and not sprawled, your head tilted towards my right shoulder.

I finish watching the movie and stare into the darkness from this moving train. A Bach plays during the acknowledgments and I lose myself in it.

I feel every bit of this moment. The rhythm of the train. The night outside and the vague shapes of trees. The quietness in this coach. The way you sleep. The way your body moves even when you sleep. The sadness that I saw in your eyes moments before you drifted off to sleep. The frown across your forehead and the confusion in your voice. The strange ache in my heart. Longing for things I do not even wish to have.

I feel this moment. A very lonely moment. A lone sadness between us. Within us. Always. The moment. This moment. Always between us.

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Inspired by: “To look life in the face always to look life in the face and to know it for what it is at last to know it to love it for what it is and then to put it away. Leonard: always the years between us always the years, always the love, always the hours.” (The Hours)

I am still around.

I am back! Yes!!

 

I don’t know how I have managed to survive this long without writing. Never again. Ever, ever.

 

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